11.6.07
"Life is full of pain. But the pain I feel is the pain of fleeting joy." - Nadja.
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10:55 PM
Look.
30.5.07
I dare not look at the past
For these memories are binding
I dare not look ahead
For the anticipated pain is heart wrenching
I dare not look at today
For these present sorrows, I cannot bear
When, where and to whom shall I look?
For to look unto myself, I wouldn’t dare
Broken and weak inside, I put on my armor
Look beyond these smiles and gaze closely
Put me under the lens, investigate and discover
The devastated, lonely and fragile version of me
Should I then look unto others?
To those responsible of giving me this pain
Blame them so I could move past this, faster
Blame myself, driving myself insane.
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12:48 PM
bittersweet.
29.5.07
i wish to repost, but I won't. *see post below*
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1:13 PM
Always... Never.
9.4.07
Always the one being talked to
Never the one who bares his soul
Always the one who comforts
Never the one who’s pacified when in trouble
Always the one who defends
Never the one given benefit of doubt
Always the one who uplifts
Never the one who feels light
Always the one who gives
Never the one who receives what he longs
Always the one available
Never the one who is not alone
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11:51 AM
21.3.07
[[cheesefest101. do not think about gobbledygook words in writing poems. free your mind from theology and hermeneutics and let your fingers type away your thoughts. teehee]]
these writings i see on my wall
random scribblings you and i wrote
makes me remember bittersweet moments
the past that plagues my thoughts
[[again, i'm so nice. i think this belongs to a new poem!]]
and again, i can't seem to start working on my paper. ugh. distractions.
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8:59 PM
can i get any cheesier?
[[haha. so i was thinking about a certain friend of mine. and i tried imagining how it would be like... so here it goes. i plan on giving this to him soon and add more salt to injury. I'm so nice!]]
why cant you be just someone else?
why cant i treat you like the rest?
why must i care so much?
why cant i forget the past?
why are you so god damn important?
why is your attention something i still want?
it has been days, months and years
yet here i am sulking and enslaved by fears
you're always in my brain
i think i'm going insane
please, just leave me be
i'm a wreck cant you see?
[[halatang hindi pinagisipan. in english? i didn't think. just wrote.]]
in other words, i'm bored. this is a distraction.
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8:51 PM
19.3.07
One thing I'm wondering
When you run out of friends
Will you be coming back home
Let's think this through again
Let's take a different spin
Why can't I leave you alone
Ugh. Leave me be. Get out of my head.
*bangs head on wall*
Damn You LSS.
=p
But, baby I'm tired
I'm tired of the fight
I'm tired of the lonely days
and the dark endless nights
It's taken some time
'Cause I didn't know
If I could ever let you go
" You helped me figure it out.
I'm better off alone."
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11:25 PM
29.1.07
i wish i knew what i know now.
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6:57 PM
